Dusty around here...

I never intended to come back here. But I just want to get this out of my system and since I think anyone following this thing has moved on long ago, I'll probably just be shouting into the void. Good. I haven't seriously drawn in years and I don't really plan to in the future. My desire kind of took a hit due to dA dramu years ago (and it's so high school, ugh. Embarrassing). But it's mostly just me and my feeling of eh. Apathy. Can't bring myself to care. Anyway. Something has come up, health-wise, and barring any tests, I have a feeling that I know what it is. And it might be more than one thing at this point. And honestly...I'm ok with it. If it's "that," I plan on letting nature take its course. I don't want to be a burden on family or insurance-payers. Everyone I know has their own thing going on so I'm not going to bother them. Not like I'm close with anyone anymore. I haven't made anything of myself and I don't care to. Not going to do any big plans and just wait it out. Some will be happy to see me go. That's fine. They'll join me someday anyway. Hell, this might be nothing and I'll just coast along for another 40 years before turning to dust. Same outcome. *waves*