It's almost 4 in the morning and I still can't sleep. Not a good thing when I have to attend class later. I might shoot up some caffeine later.
But I do have my idea for the damn series. It'll deal with my personal memories of those who I have known and since passed on (grandparents, pets/those who I have watched die), and an extra couple which deal with myself (and they'll be a little fuzzy/abstract, since memories aren't always clear). Doesn't make sense? Well, it's four in the morning, don't blame me. 8D
A few will cross over to my main Grim series (which is becoming more of an umbrella term, since the goddesses can count as an aspect of it). So that's good, I guess.
When the idea hit me, I started to cry, and I am one ugly crier. ._.; Taking a trip down memory lane does that to me (coupled with the fact that Lord Hypnos eludes me, so frustration is high). I'm okay with death itself, but it still hurts when I'm left behind, ya know? Makes me wonder how they're all doing. And it makes me dwell on the future, especially when it comes to Foxy. She's 11 now and I know many dogs don't live for more than 13/14 years. *pets her greying muzzle*
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It's strange to me that I can't sleep when Hypnos is bros with Grimmy. C'mon, man! Help a bro out! If I start falling asleep/crying in class today, so help me gods...
Too depressing? Have a cute puppy.
And something related to NuWho. You won't get it unless you've seen The Black Swan.
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Ideas coming together is always a good thing--oddly, I find most of my inspiration comes when I'm sleep deprived. But depression and sleep deprivation are not friends, so I hope you start feeling better soon. :c
ReplyDelete*glomp* You aren't alone know. Just try and pry me off xP
ReplyDelete8D I feel better, peeps! Crying can be quite therapeutic. And I've slept a bit. >.>
ReplyDeleteYou're not alone. I find myself constantly thinking about when/if my dad dies (he's in his early 70s which based on his family history is a miracle!). I know it'll eventually come but I don't want it to :( (also because I don't want to deal with my oldest sister who --ZIP MOUTH)
ReplyDeleteAlso, I don't know if it happens to you but anytime I'm absurdly sleep-deprived and about to hop into bed, my fingers itch to draw my brain's sudden inspi!wakeup...I HATE YOU BRAIN.
AHH Pupppppppyyyyy ;o; ;u; And PFFF god that Who link was hilarious XDDD
We're such bright, happy people, dwelling on that sort of thing. *snug* Big sis add stress to the situation? >.>
DeleteThe sleep-deprived inspiration doesn't happen often, but the about-to-fall-asleep/feel-that-sinking-sensation is when ideas like to pop up. They're sometimes forgotten since my body is already entering a different state and doesn't hold onto the ideas, if that makes sense. Frustrating really. And don't get me started on awesome dreams which could be made into cool stories, but are erased upon awakening. >:( /ramble
I had to add something happy at the end. 8D Puppies always work for me.
I'd like to think we're just very emotionally attached ;P Ehh, let me put it this way: she's a big spoiled, adulterous, jealously hypocritical, desperate, grubby woman 8) And 2 of those things were most likely not my dad's fault, haha. Maybe. I often compare her to my mom, who's also a firstborn and I go "yep, definitely nurture played a role in this, not nature..."
DeleteI have the racing thoughts problem, too. D: Usually thinking of all the stuff I need to get done the next day, and then I overthink how much I can do and my human fingers and constitution can't handle it all and then I scold myself and make sad faces and don't play video games as punishment. *frustration*
ReplyDeleteAnd that series is so depressing. I don't think I would have the guts to work on something like that (and I'd probably be tense and watery-eyed while working on it if I tried, so it would turn out terrible.) But still, I look forward to it, because it sounds like something a lot of emotion is going to be put into.
Awww, that puppy is like the geese at our old subdivision! We would play their honks back and they'd get all excited. :'D
I've never seen Black Swan, but 11 looks very cute in that dress. 8D
Is it bad that I laughed about how you "don't play video games as punishment?" Oh, the AGONY. 8D *ducks bricks* You seem to be doing well in the drawing department though.
DeleteGee, thanks. *becomes depressed* :P It'll be sad, but I'm using this stuff to reflect on certain events and mortality. (Yes, I know how pretentious that sounds. Hush!) I don't want to forget these pets/people completely, and since I can't take pictures of them, might as well art them somehow. >.> And Grimmy will be in them, so it's all good (or creepy, depending on how you look at it).
You teased those geese? Are you nuts?! They're crazy buggers. Speaking of which, the university's newspaper had a funny goose photo. I'll put it in the next post. XD
For the record, Black Swan was okay. It's good for a single watch. (And the DW dudes all look adorbs in dresses! :P And dress!Benedict Cumberbatch doesn't look bad either. For the record.)
Video games are serious business! D: It is punishment because I have this compulsion to play Pokemon. It's a game that sings to my very essence and calms me down. It was very therapeutic for a tough semester at university. Just as long as I don't try to catch a legendary. Then I pop blood vessels. D:< (Maybe not playing Pokemon has been affecting my mood? Since I don't have an outlet outside of art?)
Delete(In the drawing department... I seem to be doing very well doing stuff I'm told to draw and have a deadline for. As for my own projects... le sigh. Let's just say April is catch-up x4 now.)
I understand why you want to do this series, and like I said, I'm interested because it looks like you're going to put a lot into it. It's just something I'd have trouble exploring in myself without losing it. D: I admire your strength when it comes to being able to look at Death relatively calmly.
They were Chinese geese in our neighboorhood (and a family of visiting Canadians.) But Honker, my favorite Chinese goose was reacting like that puppy, calling back. Honker was sweet (even though he acted like a cat at times) so we weren't in danger. XD And yay, goose photo! <3
Why don't we just come out and say that EVERYONE looks good in a dress, as long as they find the right color and style. :P